❤ 2011 的最后一天 ❤

没有倒数、
没有他、
没有你、
没有他们。
都没有。

但我有的是家人、
我有的是家里温暖的窝囊。
** 但我也很想跟他一起度过2011的最后一天、2012的第一天 **

2011年的最后一天竟然是以生病这方式来迎接新的一年。
还真的很不一样的2012哦。

2012真的会世界末日吗？
如果是真的，
那我可以必要读书读那么辛苦了吗，反正都会死啊？
那我可以到处去玩玩吗，反正我只剩一年的时间？
那么，还有很多个那么。。。
不想了，还是天天快快乐乐的过每一天吧！

❤ 2012 新年快乐！❤

圣诞节前夕。
不敢多想。
也没什么好想的。
心情平静。
没什么好兴奋的。

就这样吧。
冷静、享受、好好过。

原来心情不好的时候做什么事情都觉得不顺利。
尤其是在驾车的时候，你会觉得全世界的人驾车技术很烂，甚至连交通灯也欺负你。
驾车四处去，没有目的地，只是盲目的家着车一个人。
脑袋一片空白。
驾着驾着，眼泪竟然不知觉的留下来。
心情起伏不定。
在家人面前要伪装得没事，还是要保持着笑容、哈哈大笑。
原来这一切都是那么难的。
累~
彷徨~

这几天的天气都冷冷的，几乎每天都下雨。
它仿佛提我难过、伤心、流泪。
雨后通常都会是天晴。
我相信。

无法入眠。
怎么强逼自己睡觉，也没办法。
头很痛，但头脑一直在想着。
好辛苦。
肚子又饿。
==

刚刚手又麻痹了。
每当在这“特别”情况时，它又发作了。
才发现原来它不是第一次这样了。
为什么呢？

I'm really sad.
(And I really meant it.)


原来到最后也只有我自己。
放心，我会学会那
坚强
独立
相信自己
靠自己

对不起。
我原本以为，也只是我以为。
我一厢情愿。
我会永远记得今天。
21/12/2011
谢谢

** Uncertain **

最近的天气很无常、很善变，
一时就狂风暴雨、
一时又天气晴朗。
有如活在这世界上的凡人一样。
凡人 = 烦人，
这真的没错。

但天气发完脾气候、狂风暴雨
就会
雨过天晴了。
哭后就会笑了。
它的眼泪会把这地球乌烟瘴气的空气洗得干干净净。
让人类和其他生物有个新鲜的空气来生存。

但人类就不同，
一而再、再而三地破坏大自然，
毫不犹豫地把握仅有的机会来毁灭它。
下一代怎么生存呢？
或者下一代没机会来到这美丽的宇宙？

人到了一定的年龄就会开始有很多烦恼、
有很多想不完的事情、
有很多分赴的想象力、
很多的很多。

难道人类就不会
少烦一件事情、
少计较一些事情、
少占人便宜、
少礼物他人、
少得罪他人?

多帮助他人、
多时间陪家人、
多为他人着想、
多照顾他人感受、
多对自己好些。

人类是最聪明但却又是最无情最善变的动物。
说变就变、
说去就去、
说走就走。
根本就不会理会身边朋友或至亲的家人与爱人的感受。
为了达到目的可以不择手段、利用他人。

“知足”这两字已经渐渐的被遗忘了。
身为人的我们就是这样，
无法满足。
虽然自己有的
比别人多、
比别人好、
比别人幸福，
但还是觉得不够。
好的要更好、
多的要更多、
幸福要更幸福。

有时候说什么梦想，
要让自己过得比现在更好（的确已经很好了，至少比那些没家、没得吃的他人好）。
但想想，
是不是我们“贪”、“不知足”、“不满意”。
有些人就是贪得无厌、不择手段达到自己的梦想。

** AB **

从前从前有两对情侣，A 对与 B 对。
A 对的他和她，
B 对的他和她。

A女和B男扮演了类似角色，
而A男和B女却有了相同的戏份。
比方，A男夹菜给A女；B女夹菜给B男。
第二对情侣好像比较正常，
因为通常都是女生会做的。
相反的是，第一对却是男生来当。
那女的超幸福，那男的也超幸福。

那男的和那女相见，
他们有说不完的话题，
他们又斗不完的嘴。
但从她的眼神，他看出了一些事情。
她以为她掩饰得很好，
她以为他应该没那么厉害看得出。
但她错了，他一眼就看得出了。
就像从前那样，她掩饰不了自己的表情和心情。
她也不错了，至少让她感觉不出。
以自然的心情面对。
说真的，
她会妒忌，但另一方面的她却感觉很欣慰。
自相矛盾的复杂心情。
她又想起了很多。
他也想起了很多。

他也很厉害掩饰。
但他看她的眼神没改变过。
她看着他们，
心里以为，
他肯给一位女生那样欺负他，他已经接受了。
她真的是这样认为。
但。。。。
他们相处的方式不一样，有不一样的幸福。
他们相处的方式虽然没有那样，但还是有斗斗嘴，一样幸福。

幸福陪伴着他们。

** Christmas **

圣诞节又到了。
“圣诞节”让你想起了什么？
礼物？
旅行？
在远方的家人，朋友或所想念的人？

圣诞节让我想起了以前在槟城的回忆。
从中三开始我也已经开始跟一群群的朋友庆祝了。
每一年都离不开被喷得像雪人那么白。
但中学毕业后就没玩了，
只是纯粹出庆祝、交换礼物。
在foundation时，却是在 Cameron 庆祝。
第一次在异乡庆祝。
的确，让我有不同的体验。
当时的我超开心因为终于有机会在不一样的地方庆祝了。
真心的想对你说：谢谢你！

而今年，我将会在 Genting 庆祝了。
很很很期待即将来临的圣诞节。
礼物就没有了，就只有我。哈哈....
根本没时间花心思在礼物上。
考试嘛。

还有还有，
希望我家人、亲戚朋友们、我爱的、姐妹们、兄弟们、
在即将来临新的一年里都平平安安，事事顺利。
❤

** 欠 **

“欠”这字可以包含很多不同的意识，
褒义或贬义，
只是在于你在什么情况、对谁而已。

从以前到现在，
我的确欠了你很多。
一些，我不愿的但还是欠了；
一些，我肯定欠的还是欠了；
一些，你自愿让的还是欠了；
一些，你不经意的还是欠了；
一些，你特地的还是欠了。
很多很多数不完的“欠”。
你口口声声说不用紧，
你确确实实说了“不用紧”，
但我还是很内疚、甚至自责我怎么想那么多，
怎么那么爱想啊，
多到有些不用想都知道不可能会发生的事情，
不想，简简单单就好，
但我确实想了。

有时候，
我宁愿欠我最要好的朋友，
因为对于他我知道怎样去“还”，怎样去报答。
但对于你，我的确不知道、也没办法。

对不起！

** My daddy **

❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤
He wanted to come Kampar purposely after my exam just to fetch me back Penang.
His willingness to sacrifice his work touched me so much.
This is not the first time he said to me, " you're my bao bei".

But this time, this sentence, touched deep in my heart.

He doesn't know how to express his love to his children (or maybe wife too :P),
but we can feel how much he loves us by what he did.

❤ Dad, I really love you so much. ❤
I know now I couldn't make any promise to you.
But one thing I'm sure I'll never do to you and mom is that

I WILL NEVER ABANDON BOTH OF YOU & MOM..

❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤

** A boring Sunday **

The day is so boring without any fun activity.
The day is filled with notes and notes.
T_T"
This is so bore.

And suddenly,
I think of U U U and U...

They're my beloved family.
They always come 1st before others.
Celebrated my dad's birthday earlier (last Sunday) as his birthday is actually tomorrow, 5th December.
My dad is very cute.
He posed many cute and funny postures when we're taking photos with him.
Happy happy birthday, daddy.
I ❤ U.

You've become part of my life since that day (328).
❤ When I'm thinking of U, I'll smile for no reason.
U make me happy in thousand ways.
Yet, we didn't realise it until we're far far apart. ❤

Childish GangZ --- all my Lao PoSsss..
I miss them very much.
1030 is the day that I will always remember till I old. =)
Best wish and lots of lucks for all of you in the study and everything.
Love u all. ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤

** ❤ **

November is going to end soon,
and here comes December.
The peaceful and warm December with the celebration of Christmas and New Year.
I'm looking forward for the Chirstmas Eve that I'm going to celebrate in different state.
Hopefully everything goes smoothly without much obstacles. =)
If so, this year I'll not be celebrating in PENANG.
Muaahahaha..

2011 is going to end.
This means 2012 is coming soon.
Recall back what we have done for the past few months.
How we've gone through all tough, sweet and blissful moment with everyone around us.
How we've create new memories in 2011.

Missing everyone especially YOU ❤

** Special Day **

11.11.11
A special day~
A day that everyone is supposed to enjoy it with the loved one, either family, friends or partner.
But, this doesn't happen to me.

11.11.11.11
Departure to Penang from Kampar.
Happy and excited to go back.
But, sad to say that I have to bring along a very thick textbook back to do assignment which is not suppose to be my part.
One person has to do three parts ( not easy ).
Rush ~ Rush ~ Rush ~
The only word that can be used to express. ><"

Although it is not good to rush for assignment when you're in hometown, I'm glad that I spend my weekends in Penang.
I'm the princess of my parents, no matter how naughty I am, I'm still their lovely princess forever.
^^
❤ Love you, dad and mum ❤

** Days when I came --- Day 4 **

Time passes very fast.
It's day 4 already. =(

We overslept again. hehe.
Went to Batu Lanchang Market to fill in our stomach with hawker food --- Char Kuey Teow.
One of his favourite food. xD
Then we went to Queensbay to buy formal wear, Prangin to buy shoes.

After that, went to buy coconut jelly.
** not as delicious as the first time I ate. But, still taste good. **
We brought the coconut jelly to Surname Jetty -- Tan Jetty, Lee Jetty and Mixed Jetty.



It's time to have dinner.
We went to an Italian restaurant --- Il Bacaro Venetian Restaurant which is located at Campbell Street.
I love the environment every much.
Romantic~
The choice of food is not much.
The workers there are very friendly.
The starter of the meal --- warm focaccia with olive oil and balsamic vinegar.
The drink --- lychee martini.
The main course --- chicken with herb and carburana fish



We were not full after the dinner.
Then we went for supper. *_*
Went to Northam Cafe for German sausage (my fav) and garlic bread (his fav).
Haha..
Eat and eat.
Fat and fat.
LOL~
❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤

** Days when I came --- Day 3 **

The day that both of tried many new food at different cafes. ❤

We woke up late a bit rush in the morning.
Around 10.30am only departed from my house.
Went to Campbell Street for breakfast which Elein brought me there before.
Old style roti bakar with eggs. ** Yummy **
Luckily the stall was still operating,
unfortunately, the roti bakar finished already, left steam bread.
Yet, it's still delicious with the eggs.After that, we went to Gurney watched movie --- Johnny English Reborn.
The movie's so funny. ( Laugh die us. LOL )Once finished watching the movie, we went to Strait Quay for our tea-time.
We went to Delicious --- a fine dining & dessert cafe.
First time go there, and first time go with dear. ❤
We spent much time there slowly enjoyed the dessert and the view.
But, we couldn't finished the dessert. ~.~
We had our dinner at Bella Marino --- an Italian Cafe.
Romantic environment, well decoration and friendly workers.
** Actually I want to bring him to de title. But, we're too "lucky" as the cafe didn't operate on that day until Thursday. =( **
Maybe this was planned, we both tried out the new cafe that both of us never been together before.
We ate until very full.
Big portion of food.
Ordered one set of meal and a pizza.

He loves to eat pizza very much. =D** He helped me to cut the pizza into slices. Blissful **

Spent wonderful time with him.
❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤

** Days when I came --- Day 2 **

We went to Queensbay had Sushi King as our lunch.
This was the first time he accompanied me to have japanese food.
** Sorry dear, I know you don't like to eat sushi. **

Tea-time. Had a cup of Chatime --- Hazelnut Chocolate Milk Tea.
First time had Chatime.
Nice~
At night, I brought my borthers to have dinner with us as my parents ate "shu".
Went to James Foo for dinner.
My brothers never been there before.

I got special gifts from vampire.
He bought from Shang Hai when he went for work.

❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤

** Days when I came --- Day 1 **

1/10/2011

The 1st day of October after end of September.
September was a tough month.
October will be a good month. =)
The day when he came.

He came by bus direct after his work.
Reached here around 11pm.
We went to eat "o jian" which he misses very much.

** Very big "O" **

❤ I ended the end of September meaningfully;
began the beginning of October blissfully. ❤

** Tomyam **

Yesterday night went to Raja Uda eat tomyam with Benny and Elein.
* Crazy right? Go so far to eat tomyam only. * haha
I have not ate for spicy food for a very long time.
The tomyam was too spicy for me as well as for Elein.
Because she also can't eat spicy. =)
I just ate not even half of it, I already can feel the "hot-ness" in my stomach.
LOL~
But, I can stil successfully finish the whole bowl. ** Yeah. ~ **


After had our dinner, we went to nearby temple "斗母宫" where there was crowded.
So we also went to "kepo kepo", as we had nothing to do. =P
Took a number of photos there.

** This is the one that newspaper reported. People can put their hands into the boiling pot. **

We then went to Tong Pak Fu after spending some time at the temple.
Benny and Elein never been there before neither the shop at Raja Uda nor Pulau Tikus.
I went to Pulau Tikus once.
1st time come here.
There is no difference.
Same menu, same decoration.
I mixed and matched weird flavour and topping --- Honeydew + Dou Fu Hua
Theirs were better than mine.
Benny ordered mango one.
Elein picked Sunmelon + Tang Yuan + Magic Ball.

** our desserts **

Had an enjoyable night eating tomyam and dessert. =)

Yesterday went out for a lunch with Elein.
She brought me to a new place, which is very unique and romantic -- de title dining cabin.
Very suitable for couples to go there for either lunch or dinner.
The shop is purple-colored, decorated with lavenders.
We can use our student cards to apply for their own student card.
There is 15% discount for lunch whereas 20% discount for dinner.
Worth it.! =)

** Our meals --- Terriyaki Grilled Fish and Terriyaki Deep Fried Fish **
Our drinks --- Hurricane ( Passion Juice) & Peppermint chocolate

After lunch we have no idea where to go to.
Elein kept driving without any destination.
Then, we decided to go to Lighthouse Coffee as that time was already 3 something.
It's time for high tea ^^
We ordered special drinks from there.
I ordered a glass of Red Devil ( Sparking juice + Expresso ) -- Don't taste good. Or I should say I don't really know how to enjoy such special drink.
while Elein ordered a glass of Kahlua Expresso Float ( Not sure what is it. But, taste like root beer. )
Elein didn't like it.

** This is the Lighthouse Coffee Bar with its decoration **

** Our drinks.
Our expression.
><" **

** Monday **

Yesterday was rainning day.
Although our plan has been ruined, we still enjoyed our day well.
Early morning went to 1st Avenue watched "The Smurfs" with Wei Liang.
It's a very cute and funny movie.
{I smurfy love you.
La la la la la, sing a happy song.}
Learnt from the movie. ^^
At night, we went to Nando's had dinner with Wei Liang and Shu Chin at QB.
I think Shu Chin and I have not met since two or three months ago.
It's a miracle that she can come to join us for the dinner.

** My meal **

After dinner, we went to "Tong Pak Fu" 糖伯府 eat dessert with Shue Liang too.
It's newly opened dessert.
It's located at Pulau Tikus.
Maybe yesterday was a raining day, so we didn't wait for a long Q.
We're lucky. =)

** Shu Chin and I **

** Wei Liang **

** Shue Liang **

** Our desserts **

After dessert, we went to Mamak Stall beside Overtime as Shue Liang wanted to eat rice. =.="
He can eat lots ( moody )... LOL